Monday 28 May 2012

who am I ?

assalamualaikum =]



seyezly my mind since a few a days mmg x wape na betol . I get a lott of probb , a lott of challenge in my life . it's bout .. arghhhh ! ISLAM mybe ? i dun think so . i think i'm a bad gurl . yeahh that's me . i'm not perfect like the others even i knew all the people in the world's not perfect except Rasulullah SAW . i knew who I'm . i'm a rough gurl . a rough gurl wif a lot of sins . i'm trying to tell and show to the world that I'm a strong gurl . i'm trying to LOVE ALLAH more than words that can I say . but . arghh it's hard to tell !

ALLAH dh ketuk pintu hati aq dulu . tapi aq x layan . aq . aq . i'm a bad gurl and i felt regret at all TT__TT ya Allah , please come backkk . i wanna u in my life . why must me ? why me ? i miss u ya Allah . i miss YOU so muchhhhhh !!! dear Allah , why it's so hard for me to mengalir air mate kerana Mu ya Allah ? why right now i feel that i'm far a wayy from You ? why why ?! TT___TT i miss that moment , that i cried to YOU atas sejadah  , praying to YOU , reciting the verses of alquran . but now .. i'm far away , far away from You . take me backk . take me backk Allahhhh . pleaseeee .

dear my Hero , thanx for everytng . i'm confuse . confuse with my way of life . i'm bad . really bad . all the things that i do mesti ade je yg x kene . TT___TT i'm tired to fight with all these kinda challenging . aq tade lha sehebat org laen , kawan2 yg laen . aq x mmpu nak bahagiakn umi abah lagi for this time . aq rase cm life aq skg serabut thp ape je , i mean , serabut ngn rohani aq . maybe cuz i'm too far from You TT___TT . please guide me again . don't left me behind . i'm scare . swear i'm scare . #listening to maher zain's song#

i've a lot of stories that wanna share . btw, i've a friend  . He's the best friend ever . He guide me a lot of things through You yaAllah . but now , we're not communicate since a few days . like something happened but idk what happened . seyezly , the sadness that i feel really appeared inside my heart . but maybe he have the another things to do than to listen to my sengal stories . haha . okehh .

my qst - do You love me YAALLAH ? bring me back to You again . can You ? help me in my study ! help me to go through all the challenge in life ! arghhhh i need You ya Allahhh ! TT____TT more than words that can I say even i've a lot of sinssss . sighh

<3 Allah <3


Saturday 26 May 2012

miss em'

assalamualaikum ! ^^
mulakan harimu dgn kalimah suci . cehh .
subhanallah alhamdulillah allahuakbar . =]
yeah ! alhamdulillah finally smpai gk kt umah . seyezly i miss everythng in kelantan !

and i miss my BFF alot . again . i miss jaja and yati so mucho even i know i'm bad fwen towards em' =(


know what huh ? study there without both of ya feel like i wanna suicide myself . it's not like what all of ya thought . ha.ha. everybody thought that i'm eppy till forget em' . what the ? sokey , they didn't know what's the real neway . btw , farhana sukri didn't forget all of ya lha ! swear , ermmm dh la ckp sal nie . tade gune gk kalo explain pnjang . kan ? (gaye sulking thp gaban lha nie) =( 

girls , in ourlifes , must have the 'pengorbanan' rite ? nk capai pengorbanan tu menyeksakan woo . lagak eppy kt luar but inside nobody know . cewahh . #oke xya nk bebel# haha . aq rindu gle kt korang . kt sane xleyh beb bawak phn , aq kn dak baek so kne f0llow the rules la . hahahaha #biala slalu je pakai mende yg laen drp studntd laen p0n# lntak aq . but seyez lha , mmg rindu + makin sayanggggg ! eeeiii . hahaha xya nk geli geli laa mkcik , dh kenyataan derr . ble nk jmpe nie ? lme lgi ke ? ble nk stdy skli ? ble nk lepak lagi ? ble nk jadi matang ? opppsss c0op aq x kate korang x matang okengg . bhahaha yatii ! jajaaa ! rinduuuu!

erm exam baru je habez . alhamdulillah . baru leh rase pernafasan aq skg become more better than before . yeahhh ! how's exam ? grrrr . korang mesti bleyh pnye . aq ? errrr still lam process of ushe + doa + tawakkal . ekeke . kite janji nk 9A+ kan kan ? pengorbanan !! insyaAllah !

papehal pon , the conclusion yg mmg dh lme gile aq simpan , just this words . ILOVEUMYBFF , IMISSUMYBFF . =) swear , nobody can't replace both of ya there and aq mmg xkn cari p0n . sbb korang special bagi aq even mmg sengal . and aq bff yg 'bad' sbb byk wt hal kt korang kan ? aq try jadi yg trbaek insyaAllah . hanya doa y mmpu aq pnjatkan . hanya pengalaman kite yg mmpu aq ingatkan . hanya PERJUANGAN yg kite janji lha aq jaoh from korang . semate2 demi kejayaan dunia akhirat yg kite pomiz . korang ingat kan ? sobbb2 , #part nie cm sebak je weh# . (err aq cover jap nie)

and i hope , both of ya never thought bad bout me again . =( 
aq sayang korang . sayang sgt2 . sangat . sangat .