assalamualaikum

today's my last day at skul . aahhh byk giler na kene hadaap . rase mcm dha ta blh na tahan when looking my clzmates . drama hindustan mmg thp giga lha tdi kan ? hahaha .(aq tanak cer pe yg trjadik, t ta pasal2 mate aq masok habok lagi !) mate dah mcm panda ape . guys , thnx alottt . aq ta penah jmpe clzmates yg mcm nie sumur idop aq . tacink gilerr . smpaii umi a.k.a ckgu maznah korang pon jadi mangse jugak . okeh , qilah kate aq kejam bwat korang mcm nie . i'm sorry . aq . ntah . byk kn memories kite ? 3years wehh . dh mcm siblingss , swear ta leh blaa . perangai snsorngg tu aq blh je na ckp . weehee =) kalo che sue , comfom keje gelak je kn ? chesue , thnx sbb guide aq byk hal . no more words that can i say . *speechless* mektangg kalo skli pndang laki hensem , komfom tros jatoh kan ? hahahahahaha . engom . atiq be strong okeh ? ingt pesan ana . korang , jage atiq lelok . atiq kn owez je ta sehat . kalo dmm , mkn obat tros . #cehhh aq caring woo# and to my all clzmates , aq sayng korang! korang trhebat trbaek ! kalo aq na cer snsorng nie mmg sumur idopp ta habes . for guys , nti tlg cheer up kan 4alfa okeh ngn lawak korng yg sengal , expecially paih and baim .to my dear n lovely hayati , even u're in beta . i'm blieve oneday u'll be in ALFA ! ingt ape yg aq psn tdi =) jgn leleh cm tdii eh ngekngok ? taa malu org tgok . ekeke . let'ss checkitouttt ~

just click tuk clear okehh ! ^^

after balik skola tu , tros je bace love letter atiq and yati . Allaahh tacink tu tuhan je yg taw . ngn rambot mengalahkan rapunzel , on mp3 then trjon kt katil , mate time tu mmg bengkak habes . #skg aq dah kalah ngn tears # tpi . tears tu untuk sahabat2 aq . aq iklas ,. cehh . #erm  aq taw aq lemah# i'll bringg ur love letters there ! big thnx korang ! again big thnx ! =] papepon . jgn lpe aq taw ? kite fight in SPM 2013 ! 

#aq ta penah anggap pon mende nie sume kn trjadik . berat giler ujian nie . tapiii . i've too . guys , kite cool lepak sntaii kan ? ta cun kalo wt drama hindustan kan ? ha.ha. okeh enough , tanak stat balik . jom! we're smile . i lived , i learned , i smile . 

help me Allah =/

assalamualaikum and a very good mwnim to evyone =] i just wanna share smtg . but tade niat na show off nauzubillah okehhh . i'm just cnfused T__T   

not clear at all aite ? zooommm it  . =]

 alhmdulillah bersyukur thp giga kt ALLAH SWT . kasi aq chance for second intake . kalo dulu , pnye lha leleh ta brlaguu smpai mogok mam , tanak tron bawah . giler mcm b**** je aq . haha . but now? Allah kasi jalan dha . tapi tapi tapi . aq mcm tanak . aq ase cm better aq stay kt SMKWB . my beloved skul where i got 8A's there . oh my Allah . aq takot na hadap somethng yg aq tataw ap yg akn trjadik kt aq nnti when aq g sane . TT__TT umi abah ckp 'go on ana ' . deorng tarahal . tapi aq ? i'm scare enough . scare  ta leh na catch up in any subjects . yea i know la , subjects same je . tapi tapi . kalo aq still je pakai system loading ? how can i go through sume hal nnti ? aaaaaahh . btw , ALHAMDULILLAH again ya rabb =)

harapan umi abah kt aq tinggi langitt woo . aq ta leh na tdo smlm . deorng siap angan2 suh aq g oversea lagi after SPM nie TT_____TT mmpu ke aq ? kuatkah aq ? umi abah , ana takot . tapi percayalahhh . anakmu ini akan struggle bbetol mcm kaklong . na lebeh dari kaklongg mungkin . terbaek mcm kaklonggg TT__TT . #oke , now pasir dha leleh# patot aq g ke tak ? aq aq ! aaahhh takot na face . kalo kt sini , allhmdulillah , dpt kawan2 yg hebattt , terbaekkkkk ! aq sayang deorng . sayangg sgt2 !!

kejayaan tu kt mne2 kan? kt sini pon aq leh je dapat asalkn usaha tu yg pentim . sedeh + sebak + pilu + happy . sume dha mix skli . first dpt taw , aq leleh je . dono why . TT___TT mcm lawak je life . aq apply kt tempat laen , tapi tuhan kasi yg nie . tape aq bersyukur =] lemahhhhnye aq . go or not ? peluang kt depan mata dh . haihh . again , should go or not ? go or not ? not ? go ? go ? not ? goo !!

=)

what's mean of attitude actually ? yeaa it's show of ourselves aite? first impression when my new fwens saw me , for sure they will say 'eh tu budak baek , looks at her hijab, laboh ' ha.ha.ha . and a few of them told me the truth . what so funny i guess . dun judge a book by it's cover kay ? i was laughin' at all that day . no i'm not . i'm not like what you said . tapi bukan na kate yg aq nie jenis 'rosak aklak' . tak tak . nauzubillah . i dono what i wanna say . i'm just speechless . still thinking , actually what i wanna in this world ? i dono , sometimes , 'pasir akn leleh' jugak . sbb hidop kt dunia nie , a lott of sins yg aq bwat . aq ntah la , it's dfficult to say . but i'll try to be a good muslimah . cehhh ,

menutup aurat ? byk je cara yg bleh bwat . ta smstinye ngn pakai jubah tudong laboh segale bagai kan? but feel weirdo wif some people yg na kate pemikiran deorg nie kureng , tak jugak . tapi depends on masing2 la kan? hati Allah pegang , no one can ckp mcm2 . ta baek . i mean , it's depends on someone la na tutop aurat tu ngn care mcm mne sklipon . org keliling ta berhak na halang . but just one thing . asalkn menutop aurat . bukan membalut aurat . hee =] *brpesan kt diri aq jugak *  

bile masok je alam remaje nie , cabaran tu xley blaa . but i'm now try to impr0ve myself ke arah yg better from dulu . try na jadi budak baek . *eh slme nie jahat ke? * hahaha . sbb dulu byk je dose . na kate insaf , ntah la . tapi kalo na bwat kebaikan , ta leh na show off ~ riakk woo .

'something' is haunting me till now . idono what should i do . smetimes i'm just stared at my window during nite . looking up the stars . find my life . and keep asking , who are you farhana sukri? why u lived in this world ? bergune ke ? sighhh guide me yaAllah . sujud mengadap Allah is the best way . ask for His guideness . jika jatoh untai mutiara kerana Allah , alangkah untong . KALULAH aq mmpu semua tu ='(

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teringat semua yang KAU beri utkku 

ampuni khilaf dan salah selama ini 

ya ILAHI <3  

tacink . eheh

assalamualaikum
heyy . haha post tittle mcm pe je kan ? tapi betol lha , since masok upper form nie , mmg byk giler lha smtg yg kne aq face . ujian Allah kan ? kelas 4alfa currenly silent . and now , atiq yg teman aq kt tepi . besenye yati la since form1 ag . but we're seperated . na bwat mcm mne kan ? jaja pon duk jaoh . i miss them alott TT__TT .

. suria and intan . they're really nice to me TT__TT ilove them also . they give me alott of spirit here to be a strong and brilliant gurl . yaAllahhh . thnx . alott of thanx . they make me cheer in claz even yg laen2 dha tade . cehhh ana . jiwang woo . aq ta maen doe ayat ayat bunga nie . ahahha . tapi err tu dulu . mmg la , anti giler mendemende nie sume . skg tak . kot la. ngee ^^ rase mcm na ngs . aaaaaa dha kuar pasir . ta suke r . smlm hajar called , giler aq rindu . rindu sgt2 . #air hujan dha tr0n r kt pipi # aaaaaa mcm berat na face sume nie ! aq rindu kawan-kawan aq . korangggggg . thnk you for evythg .

suria and intan , deorng byk guide aq in study . alhamdulillah . kalo deorng tade kt kls , tataw la aq nie mcm mne nti . tapi seyez . aq terharu . bersyukur sgt2 , maybe nie la hikmat kan ? ta dpt mrsm or sbp , tapi Allah kasi clazmates yg caring TT___TT . aq ta bleh na ckp kt deorng cnggini sbb kite0rg nie mmg gengg gilergiler . wt c0ol ngekngok je . ececece . nti ta psl2 dpt anugerah terbaekk drama . hahaha ngeng .

and now , aq nrvous , exam dha dekat . tapi aq lnsong ta ready . mmpu ke aq na score byk A nti ? why aq nie?  aq boleh! aq boleh ! aaaaaaaaaa ! TT____TT act my feelim still not in a good stable mood yet . aq na try asrama . na sgt2 . jeluz ngn deorng . tapi . tapi aq . aq try to accept sbb Allah lagi tawu pe yg trbek . kan ? =]  why berat sgt nie aq na kene hadap? ohh tuhan . help me . help me . aq jatohhh . aq maseh jatohhh . aq na gapai smtg tuk aq na naek balikk . tapi 'somethng' tu hape? aq ta nmpakkk . aq ta nampak lagi !! aq na bangon from sume nie! na  bangkitttttt balikkkk . tanak pndang kt bawah tu , na cari and gapai 'smtg' tu and na try bangonn ! angkat aq ! anggkat aq !! TT______TT

subhanallah =>

assalamualaikum !
guys! khamis lha plg aq suke ! sebab ? sebabbb . esop weekend o0yeah . heh . pispiss esop aq dha stat tusyen dha ! yeahh na stdy bebet0l . aftr blk skola tdi , my clzmates dtg woo . kite0rg ta lepak okeng! but kiteorg stdy . kih2 *bajett budak skema lha nie* tade tade , real hape , we did addmath . fun njoyy gilerr ! alhmdulillah . takat nie kite0rg still can catchup ag . tataw lha nnti cmne . huuu nauzubillah kayh . harap Allah prmudahkn segalenye . bio pon alhmdulillah . intrsting mrvellous! but one je , malas doe na hafalhafal nie . adehh ana , kate na jdi doc ? err tgok dlu . kih2 , fizik not s0 bad , aq suke sbjekk yg kire mgire nie . aggaga =) wut bout history? maaaakkkkkkkk !! dun say that ! cuakk + dislike . HAHAHAHA . err but try to like lha , alahaii apahal la kne ad sej ? ermmmm tayah explain tayah explain . ana tawu nape . -.- mcm lawak , parenz ckgu sej , tapi anak ? hahaha no coomenttttttt . insyaAllah la , aq try .

seyezly , omwerk become more increase woo . kdg2 , the ''evil ana'' said ::[ anaaa , tayah buatt ! pegi tdo pegi tdo ! ] grrrrrr yg nie la aq plg geram >,< na kne fight satuhal . perhh mcm pe je . adeh , life as stdnt mcm nie la kan ? evyone p0n cmfom je ase mende yg same . fightim fightim ! haha . exam ta smpai sebulan pon lagi . nervous giler + cuakk habes . er why pulak ? sebab . sebab . sebab . ___________ err ana ta ready 100prcent lagiiiiiiii . hahaha . oke , still smpat kot kalo na revise . insyaAllah .

i miss her =(

assalamualaikum .
heyhey ~ dha tgok tittle tu ? yeaa . admit , swear aq rindu dy . sape tu ? nor masliza . mekjaaaaa , mekjaaaaa , rindu kamoo gilergiler . erm esp dha na balik mktab kan? nnti jgn lupe aq taw ? u know what mkjaa ? that day u called me , first tyme dlm idop mu brjaye kasi 'nasihat n smgt' kt aq . weirdo sbb slme aq knal mu , mu ta pndaii bab2 kaunseling nie . hehe . but that day , i'm touchin' enough . sumpah dear . and now , u're currently change . change i mean , become more mature . ( msti poyo nie sal pengakuan aq) tape2 . haha . seyezly , i miss u damnmucho ~ yaAllah thnx giving her to me . korang jgn amek dy ! she's my BFF ! haha tade lh smpai cnggitu skli , tapi . aq . jeluz . kot . kalo korng amek ! heee .

a bit of shocked + speechless when u said '' ana , aq taw mum dha byk tnggong n face the pain snsorng slme nie , mu just tnjuk kebahagiaan mum je , sedeh mum smpan sndrik , now aq tanak sume tu , aq na dsmping mum '' allahh . kalo org blg kasot kt muke aq pon mmg aq takkan blahh from kusi yg aq duduk tyme tu . no words that can i say . aq genggam phn rumah kuat giler . time tu just the tears yg kuar . ohh again , haha . na bwat mcm mne dha 'dy' na leleh jugakk . tpi seyez , aq ta mmpu tahan . yeaa tht's rite ja . act aq ta ksh la kalo aq kne face alone pon , asal kawan2 aq bhgia , insyaAllah aq snyom skli ngn korang =)

and iloveudamnmuch . u give me a lot of spiritt to face evythng in this world . alhmdulillah . alhamdulillah .
mcm dlu , aq ta dpt tawaran pon , mu yg byk support . terharu ta trkate lha . betol . ta tipu =] kalo na cer , mmg byk sgtt . haha . just one thing , never forget you . jom! kite fly same2 ! fly tinggi2 ! nnti dpt g oversea same2 kan ? yeahh insyaAllah .

let me .

life ? haha dha malas na ckp . na luah . tapi kt sape lagi na gtaw ? yeah ana tawu , Allah swt . org kate aq hipokrit ? yaAllah , takot giler dgr that word . sumpah . mcm pe je , tapi tape , aq pndai cover muke . cehh ha.ha . jgn lha ckp 'word' tu . besar di sisi Allah . neraka tmpatnye . ana takot . TT__TT it's actually , i am who i am lha . bwat pe na jadik org laen? yea , hamba Allah said 'ana, ur bhviour so rough lha ' so ? oke enough . enough lha . penat lha . kacaw  ~ yeah one more , second intake tu ko jebek je kan mulot tdi ? i know myself , ta sehebat korang .  btw, i'm tired . H.I.P.O.K.R.I.T . takot lha TT________TT ana takot . ALLAH , smpai bile sume nie na berakhir ? sumpah pennattt . ta tahan la na cover muke . cover malu . aq ta mcm gurls yg laen , ta sehebat farah n clzmates laen , ta selembot anis , ta cun cm yasmin n yg laen , tak tak! aq laen . tapi . aq pon pompuan jgk . grrrrr sume org takkan phm . kaklongggggg TT_____TT ana penatt . Allah , why Allah pilih ana na go through sume nie? till when ? kalo esop ana bngon pagi , blh ta Allah change je ana jadik besaa je tros ? tak pon , nnti kalo ana bngon pagi , Allah letak ana kt syurga tros ? boleh tak?  astaghfirullah . ampon yaAllah ampon yaAllah . aq tanak jdi hipokrit . hati tu Allah yg pegang . org ta blh na nilai suke suke hati je . oke enough la , asal dy bahagia , insyaAllah aq tumpang skli . even kebahagian dy tu menghancorkan hati aq . Allaaahhumassolia'laa muhammaddd TT__TT waalimuhammad, guide me YaAllah to be strong like RASULULLAH . let's stat a new life wif a new smile . insyaAllah i can . heyy new one ANA . papai the old one ana . make , dgn ini mengumumkan . jengg jengg jenggg !   

 

page one : a new one ANA being an upper form gurl . she had go through all the pain alone almost two years , now . she have been a new one . her ownself . she love starss . the stars can make her peace =] and she learn to be a mature gurl . do grow up wif her in her new life . insyaAllah .  

     

assalamualaikum =]

salam maulidul Rasul =]

yaNabi salam alaikaa . alluakbar . salam maulidul Rasul guys . i'm proud to be an Islam ! nikmat yg plg agong =) Nabi Muhammad b Abdullah . our strong hero . He's a strong guy . He never payback tuk org2 yg nyakiti hati nabi secara fizikal or mntal , subhanallah . Nabi amat kuat in having all the test from Allah taala . can we be like Him ? me ? idono . my faith's weak . not as Him . i wish i could be . insyaAllah . He's so perfect =] boleh ke kalo ana jadi sekuat Nabi ? Ana nak face ujian Allah yg leceh nie pon mcm hape je . my tears mmg kuar jugak when sitting alone , kire muhasabah diri la , cehh . nabi mmg terhebattt ! sanah helwahh yaa Rasulullah SAW =] i hope i can be strong like You to face evytng in this world . insyaAllah even I know i can't and impossible to be a perfect gurl like Rasulullah SAW .

swear , when looking up kalimah 'MUHAMMAD' . hati ttbe tenang . mcm de ice je kt dlm hati . my mouth suddently smiling till ears . mybe nie la org kate , sbnyk mane pon challnging in world nie , bile tgok je kalimah 'ALLAH' , 'RASULULLAH' , 'KAABAH' , comfom tenangg . subhanallah . sbb tu kite kene dkt diri ngn deorng . bile kite ingt deorng , msti deorng ingt kite jugak . kan ? haha yupp . just one thing , Allah never leave us even we did a lot of sinss . insyaAllah ;)

# i learned . i smile . =]
salam maulidul Rasul .
RASULULLAH THE BEST ^_^
kekasih ALLAH SWT =]

challenging ~

weekenddd oyeahh + cuti ahad nie . weheehe sukenye! grr suke ta suke lha , omwerkk bpk thp giga dowh ! alahai . smthg yg mmg aq ta suke . tapi terpkse la bwat  suke . future woo . peacee y0k! cun ta pictha kt ats uh ? wikiwiki sengal . yeahh strong . word tu mcm dha xley blaa from life aq korang taw? haha . it give da spirit la to face evytng surrounding me . tdi dpt tawu yg hafiz n ira dpt mjsc langkawi . pkp woo . cngrate cngrate ! syitah dpt mjsc pc . raja dpt taiping eh kalo ta silap . mmbers laen pon same je . kbykn mmbers aq dak2 mjsc , sbp ta ramai sgt . cehh tapi aq dak harian bese je . watlekk . mende tu ta melemahkan aq la . raising up my spirit adela . umi abah , kaklong , ani , mekja a.ka. masliza . yg byk kasi aq smgt . alhmdulillah =] eh eh , aq na ckp pe pdhl nie ? ngee , actually , byk je keje na kene settle . like the assighments , blmbak ag yg ta settle weh , haha gigit jari lha nti . mmg kne ushe hbz , nafsu tu nomber one lha , kene tahan . tapi iman aq ta kuat sgt na tahan nafsu . beb , my nafsu mean = na kne tahan diri from sleeping lebeh2 , njoy gile , read the novels , hangout , but alhmdulillah . skg watchin' tv aq dha blh cover . hourayy ! ^,^ smetimes, i nvr touch the tv in a week ! blieve it or not , lntak korang . wehee . nak jage pagi2 buta cm PMR cndidate dulu tu yg ssh cket skg . hadooii . fightim fightim . kalo mmbers laen blh je , xkan lha ana ta leh gak kan ? 10A's SPM insyaALLAH . aq nak! aq nakk! so stat it from now ! umi abah said '' adek ana , angah . u guys must study smart okeii , dun stress , stdy bia njoyy '' err baekk umi abah ! untong dpt parenz cm deorng . heh =) . cabaran la , na kene ingt formula physics tu, cm lemah . bio lagi la , na kene bace + understndg + memahami . makk aii , Allah tolong aq . sbb aq ta kuat ushe cm mmbers laen . i'll try insyaAllah . haha . looks like , mcm dha ta blh na n9 puaspuas lha . scrified seyhh . i need Allah <3 more than words that can i say :-) subhanallah , walhamdulillah , allahuakbar ^__^

wut so tired ~

life aq yg sbnar dha bermule  =]

 

life as upper form pure scs stdnt . sighhh penat yg trmat tuhan je yg tawu . fb pon ta smpat na on . kalo on pon , jap2 je . ya Allaaah . sungg0hlaa , ta tipu ta tipu . memang penat . assighments blmbak giler yg postp0ne . sorry tchers , i dun mean to postpone all that . but i'm tired . dun hve enough tyme to do that in a day! i need the tyme . TT__TT penat . penat . penat . ta ckp tdo . c'mon ana , bkn ana je . clzmates len pon same . err keje aq rungut je , wehh aq ta rungut! aq juz luah . cehh luahkan pe yg trpndam .try to smile insyaAllah . kuat . kuat . saba ana . two years only . SPM.  yeah . gtg , magrib . papaiii ^^